The Dukes of Sexy!!!

Just came back from watching the Dukes of Hazzard. Thought it would be a really stupid, crap movie but it was one of the best i have seen in a while. i loved it. And Johnny Knoxville is soooo sexy. I know i am really late with that discovery but he is too sexy. I love bad boys. Theoretically. They are a lot of fun, seemingly. Just not when you're involved with them. But then again how the hell would i know?

I have decided to go buck wild in Texas. I know, my word choice is impeccably appropriate isn't it? Seriously though. Safe is boring and having too much free time on my hands makes me think too damn much and that is my biggest problem right now. Thinking too damn much. Ok, so maybe buck wild is not exactly right. I just want to live it up for once in my life. Before i have to officially be a grown up. So Texas is going to be my playing field. Yeeeee-haaaaaw!!! Ok. So i am still in post movie mode. I was inspired to go crazy.

I am not bothered about my love life right now. I am excited. I am not looking for anything serious. Now, i am not going to be stupid and say i am going to be single and happy forever. But just cuz you're single doesn't mean life has to be completely shit now does it, excuse my language. No. Knowing me and my inability to play nice with other boys and girls, i need to be footloose and fancy free. Raise hell. Be someone completely opposite from me. For kicks and giggles. It is really bad when a Christian girl discovers the liberation in making mistakes and living in the moment instead of hiding behind the bible she's pretending to read. I am totally devoted to God, no doubt. I stand by all my beliefs, i may falter every once in a while but i am grounded in Christ at the end of the day. But i was put on earth to live life. Not simulate living life while analysing and studying it alone in my room. There's got to be more to life than going to church and reading the word and preaching on top of your soapbox to the lost sinners of the world. And there's got to be more to life than hanging out, going crazy and completely ignoring the fact that you know deep down inside you there most certainly is a God and no matter how smart or rebellious you imagine yourself to be, you can't fool yourself into believing He doesn't exist or hiding behind your ignorance and lack of initiative to get to know Him because other human being put you off Him. There is a healthy balance and it has become my quest to find it and live it.

So Texas means a new start, shedding inhibitions and letting loose and rediscovering my faith in Jesus. It means not obsessing over love. Not worrying about being pretty. Not stressing over having little to no money. And not depressing over friendships or lack there of. It's about me finding out who the fuck I is. Should be simple enough.