I spoke to Bigg last night. I know, i know, i'm getting tired of hearing about this crap too. But we spoke for two or so hours and we were friends. I was not harbouring any other feelings for him. It dawned on me. We are good friends. I can not believe i wanted to jeapordize that with anything else. But i spoke to him last night the way i speak to Taps. He said he admired and trusted me. We spoke about love and relationships. We caught up on each other's lives. I told him i was moving out of Georgia. He said i sucked. But that he'd still visit me. It was great. It as comfortable. I think i just may have finally gotten my closure. And i'm glad. I'm not insane anymore.
P.S. I did fib however. He asked me if towards the end of the semester i had begun dating or talking to someone. He was referring to Peanut. He had observed certain times when i was on the phone with Peanut and had heard Slim make a few comments about Peanut. But i said no. I said i wasn't talking to anyone. Not wholly a lie. Me and Peanut aren't necessarily dating. I dunno what we are doing. But i don't know why i pretended like nothing of the sort happened. Hmmn.
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