Mark Anthony

So my cousin is bent on setting me up with this guy she met at her job in phoenix this week. I thought she was being silly and joking around.

Um. No. She showed him my picture, told him all sorts of things about me (basically advertising me, lol) and then she gave me his number and bugged me all week till I called him last night.

I was irritated at first because the last thing I want to deal with right now is another guy you know? I have had enough emotional drainage to last me a year in the past few months and I felt I need time to get my act together and learn from my foolishness.

But I called him anyway and we talked for over an hour. I dunno if that means we connected or if it means we are good at small chat. Lol. Anyway, so I talked to him and he seems like a nice guy but I can not really gauge anything over the phone. I'm not sure.

I might be going over there for Thanksgiving and my cousin wants me to meet him. She is really, really adamant about it. I am still wary of even just making friends with guys but then again I think the good in all this is that it has gotten my mind off Flower Bandit for a short while. Plus Flower Bandit is leaving for a month November 2nd. So I figure the more time I spend away from him and the more I have to think about other than him the better right? Then I can move on right?

I dunno, I am confused and a little annoyed but I am trying to live and not be stuck where I am right now. I don't want a boyfriend and I do. Just not Flower Bandit anymore. I am tired of him and the guilt I feel and the constant back and forth crap. I need to move on and I am already flinching because despite its superficial nature, this is one band aid that is going to hurt a little when ripped off.

So. Mark Anthony. He's 28. Hmmn.

He is a computer sales something or another. I forgot already. He got a degree in international business though. He is apparently very handsome. That is not always a good thing but I am being open here. He is articulate (whatever the hell that means) and played college basketball. I dunno.

I won't write him off but I am not terribly enthusiastic about meeting new people right now. But anything to get my mind off depressing things right?

AY. What have I gotten myself into now?

Irony of ironies, I am hanging out with Flower Bandit tonight. I hate me sometimes.