Ay!

Or should I say "eye!"

More eye issues. Bugger.

So my eye has been slightly painful and very sensative to light for the past week. I was hoping it would go away on its own but with my track record I should have known it was something rather serious. So I went to the opthamologist yesterday. It took me fifty forevers to find one in the area that was not booked until December. Who knew so many people had opthamologists ey? Anyway I finally found one and THANK GOD for my friend Bethany. She drove me there, stayed with me the whole time and drove me home afterwards. She did not have to do that and I was so touched. She is a sweetheart. And it's not the first time she's been so sweet to me, she's forver doing little and big things to help me out. I think she's wonderful.

So back to the eye. It's rejection. My bollucksy body has taken over a year to realize "Wait a lick, this isn't me!" and is now slightly rejecting my transplanted cornea. Ok, it's not catastrophic. I have been through it before and the doctor was not terribly worried. He prescribed these drops that I once had to take ages ago. I have to take them six times a day and then go back and see him in a week. So we're not panicking yet, it should be fine. Already it feels much better and its only been half a day.

So I was a little worried because the student insurance I am on says it does not cover dental or vision. So I was in a bit of a panick as I was half-expecting to pay out my bum for the consult with the doctor. Thank goodness he found something because had he been like, "oh it's nothing at all, it will clear up in a bit. That'll be five million dollars please," I would have gone round the bend. But no, thankfully he found something.

And they took my insurance, SHOCK HORROR. I was pleased as punch to be quite honest. Apparently it was a medical thing, not so much a vision thing like contacts or glasses. So they took my insurance and though the bill still hurt my heart a bit ($161) I was glad I wasn't paying out the bum. Brilliant. The drops (ONE DOZEY BOTTLE MIND YOU) was nearly $30 and buggery Walgreens does not ake my insurance. Ugh. But it's ok, I'm just grateful I am fine and that God has been watching out for me though I am the VERY LAST PERSON on earth to deserve any sympathy from him. I love God though. Not only because he's there for me when even I'm not, but because he's constant.

So Back and Forth again. FB is practically married to open-relationship-girlfriend. Nothing has happened but I realize this. I am feeling better now that I have been away from him for a couple of nights. I was....oh alright, I AM... very worried of the prospect of not finding someone and dying alone or at least going through most of life alone and not liking it. Some people can do it, no problem. But I dunno if I can. I always thought I could, before I got involved with dating. And now I'm not so sure. Malaika (the other one, not me) said I will not be able to cut FB off without moving or finding a replacement. She's right I know. But honestly.

New Guy from Phoenix never got back to me again. I take it he was as disinterested in me as I was in him. Hmmn. Too bad for my cousin really, she was so looking forward to us hitting it off. But we didn't. I rather relieved though. I am knackered with men right now. And knackered of talking about them. So let's stop then shall we.