It's bloody happening again.
Buggery wanking todger! I am such a deluded moron.
It was raining last night. Hard. It's a little thing between us that we love watching thunderstorms. It was lightening and everything. It was beautiful. It was three in the a.m.
He called me. Asked what i was doing. I was not sleeping. He asked if he could pick me up so we could watch the thunderstorm together. I said yes. I went.
We went to J's. Unfortunately J was still up. For about an hour. He finally left and went into his room to sleep and he put in Wedding Crashers. I would have preferred sitting in a car and watching the rain, but it worked i guess. He was laying on me.
We stayed up after the movie ended, talking. We delved into deep issues.
I do not know what i want right now but i felt a pull towards him. I knew better, the pull was really strong but also shallow. It was like watching a car crash in slow motion. I saw myself crashing but couldn't do anything to stop it. Well, i could but didn't.
Around 9 this morning we were still up and he said he wanted to taste my "luscious lips" after i provoked and provoked him to get the desired affect. I worked my mischeivous charm. I asked him what was holding him back.
Things fall apart.
I need to stop this behaviour. This just will not do chum. Just won't do. I need to stop before i do something i might regret. But now he thinks i am on the same page as he is and i'm not.
This just will not do.
5 comments:
i think ur both on the same pg 4 sure
how do u mean?
well if he isn't being true... meaning he is full of it... and you aren't really into him...then you both are sort of on equal footing. get my meaning?
i think i am getting into him though. hmmn. oh dear.
thats bad business....well you're young...whats wrong with a boyfriend...you'll live through it...and probably love every minute of it.
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