gone

my aunt is gone. She passed away last night and i don't know what to do. don't worry about me, this too will pass. i just wish the world could stop for a minute so i could process all of this. And i wish i could shatter into a million pieces so i could feel. But the world goes on like nothing happened. people still have the nerve to live and smile and laugh like jackasses and go to school and work and on dates and get excited and live. and live. why won't the world hang on a minute and realize she isn't a part of it anymore? i dunno why i expected a cataclysmic natural disaster to take place. it would make things a lot more real right now. but i am floating around in detatched limbo waiting for something to give. something's got to give right?