Be Kind To Yourself

I'm tired of talking about him. I am tired of being in this game. I am tired of it all. I am at a point where I am just tired. Tired.

I'm not sure if I am upset that much anymore or just tired. He has been away all weekend and he has messaged me the whole time but I am tired. Tired.

I have no energy for this and it is really a waste of my time and thoughts and energy.

I'm tired damnit. Tired as hell. I'm just so tired.

I realize I sound very repetitive but that is the way my life has been of late. I hung my life on this one situation because I thought, will I ever really find love? Will I find whatever the fuck it is I am looking for? I have whined to the point of exhaustion. I am bored with myself.

I am tired damn it. Tired and on the brink of Don't give a flying fuck.

I'm too old for games. And I really need to stop cussing. Even if it is just on my blog.