I woke up this morning and out of nowhere I lost it. All the work I have put into forgetting and moving on. All my promises to myself that I would not spend more time on this, just gone. Out of the window.
My heart reminded me how much it hurt. And I woke up and cried. I am falling apart. I'm trying to keep it together.
I don't mind the tears because they ease the pain sometimes. I am trying to forget. But I am ashamed of my life. It is empty. He has moved on. And I am stuck in the mud.
So I cried this morning despite myself.
Do other people make such a big deal about this? This does not feel normal. I know I am not crazy. But right now I feel like I'm going.
Holy Spirit....help.
1 comment:
You can make it!!! I think its difficult for the heart to let go but you will make it.
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