Can You Keep A Secret?

I am a girl who is learning the truth about who she is.

I'm that girl who is awkward and slightly loud when she's happy.

I bounce my leg when I am nervous or bored.

Sometimes when I blink, my eye sounds like those old plastic dolls. Click, click. Complications of surgery and an artificial lens. Hmmn.

I burp out loud when alone and swallow my burps in public.

I am truly self conscious.

I put my foot in my mouth a lot of the time because of how awkward I am.

I say the wrong things and wish to God I can take them back only to realize that I am far too scared to take them back and so I wallow.

I think far too much and usually get down when I find myself in the deepest, darkest recesses of my own mind.

I'm not sure what I want to be when I grow up, even though I am already grown up.

I have never had a boyfriend but have dreamt of one since I can remember.

I am not open with my feelings because I am terrified of what you'll think of me.

I have done bad, bad things though on first impression I seem like the good girl.

I slept with someone else's boyfriend and can not forgive myself.

I procrastinate on everything and thus am stressed out all the time.

I don't know how to connect with my family all the time.

Sometimes I worry I will never be able to discern the voice of God and I will completely miss it.

I love Michael and Janet Jackson and spend hours in my room dancing and singing, wishing I were a pop star.

I secretly think I can sing even though it is rather doubtful.

I am overwhelmed by my mistakes and the depression is unimaginable sometimes.

I have happy moment when I am on top of the world.

I have never kept a close friendship for more than five years and am terrified of losing my friend.

I miss my family but when I am home I am very quiet.

I lose faith in myself and in my future a lot.

I sometimes wear socks that have not been washed in ages. Most of them have massive holes because I have razor-sharp talons sometimes when I don't snip my toenails.

My eyes are bad.

My heart is aching and has been for too long and I am desperate for it to stop.

I listen to all music....even Country.

I love Christmastime.

I love the city lights.

I get lonely in the most profound way.

I want to stop believing in love but the truth is I am terrified of never finding it.And of ever finding it.

I am scared about the rest of my life because from here on, it's just me.

I learned that I am not the girl I thought I was and right now I am not ok with it.

I still like him.

My chest burns when I cry.

I sleep alone.

I cry alone.

I crave attention but then am embarrassed when I get it.

I am just another girl who feels like she is invisible.

I feel like a hypocrite and a melodramatic.

I wish I was wise.

I wish I were humble.

I wish I were together and a good friend.

I have not yet proved myself to be a good person even though I know deep down I have the potential to be.

My loneliness threatens me everyday. And it frightens me.

I wish I had a happier life even though I see the value of suffering.

I am scared.

I have no idea who I really am.