Abs

I am alternating between hating my tummy and having zero hope and having some hope. I bought an ab aerobics dvd today. Lol. I am working on getting a sexy body. Oh my goodness is it just me or does Valerie Bertenelli (however you spell that one) look amazing? I saw the latest Jenny Craig ad. I have no idea how old she is but I want her stomach. I'm so jealous. I am working toward the Janet abs. I dunno. Here's hoping.

I wish I didn't care so much. If I could just switch off I would. But I find myself caring and thinking and buying cards and missing and wishing he would call or text. I am disgusted. I wish I didn't care. I wish I didn't. I want to just curl up and live under a rock, I hate this. How long will I have to be like this? How long Lord? Please. help me out of this hole I am in.

Ok. Another dismal post. I need to try harder.